Paris

Saturday, March 26, 2005

In the presence of him, you pretend to ingnore him and look away.
but still hoping that he will look into your way.
But when he is no longer there, you look around to find him
and get so disappointed to know that he is gone.
Although you are tokin to someone else,
your eyes are fixed on him.
You find your textbook filled with his name,
and in the midst of you school desk, you could actually spot his name there.
When a new movie is out, the first person you wished to watch with, is him.
But always end up watching with your friends.
When people mention the word 'Valentines Day',
the first thing that appear on your mind is his name.
You realise that your conversation with your friends never fail to include him.
You worry if he will fall for someone else,
and hurts when you knew that the person will never be you.
You find yourself getting so affected by just one word or action from him.
Sometimes you get angry with him for some reasons, and feel yourself hating him
But once you see him again, your heart melts, and found yourself loving him once more.
You tried to forget him, but got reminded of the memories with him.
Many times, you force youself to stop likin him,
but find it even harder than killing yourself.
You tried to convince yourself , that you dont like him anymore.
But find the person on your mind is still to be him.
While you are reading this, the one that has appeared on your mind is him.
Just like when i was typing this, it was him on my mind, all this while.
Its tiring to live in pretence and lies.You cant avoid it. Love is cruel and it hurts all the time.
He's not gonna come and pick up the broken pieces of you.
Perhaps he'll walk past you with another girl by his side. Not you.

}} PARIS 8:20 PM