I lack of the courage
to dial that number
I once familiar.

I wanted to know badly what's been happening
in their life everyday, yet now,
I even felt guilty when I
tried to find out from a third party

What if one day your backup got lost
and your connection becomes only one way?
You anticipate for a reply and yet
the answer never comes back.
Everyone starts to leave you behind,
starting afresh, cos the life that
you had chosen is not them.

You fear the life that you had chosen
may not really end up the way you
Want. In the end you lose everything.

Honestly I felt that I'm losing everything
...

I just need some courage to get things right

It hurts when the ratio is becoming 2:1