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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Hey hey..

This is my first post in Cambodia..
I know everyone miss me so much rite.. haha
Finally i know the taste of flying..
It is fun

Nthing much here in cambodia
But heard there\s alot to shop..
Gap, Ralph Lauren and Burberry
all cheap cheap 5US only..

We 3 are living above the shop house
there are alot of cockroaches at night
and they are 3 times the size you see in Singapore
Sharon screams everynight when she saw insects
She dun even dare to brush her teeth..
We got power cut in the first night
at around 8 smth
it stops for like 15 mins
the house was in complete darkness..
lucky sharon got bring torch light..
Everyday at least gt power cut for 3 times..

Living condition is not so bad
ppl are friendly and nice
I attend cash registering lesson today
But it was in cambodia language
so is hard to understand
But me and Sharon miracle-ly
can understand how to use
ZAI RIGHT???

No entertainment after 5
after sky is dark
only 3 of us and laptops
had to wash our own clothes
me and sharon wash till we siao lor
cos is HANDWASH
I saw a rat yesterday and today
damn big.. in the GBC kitchen..

Traffic is terrible..
We travel by Motor
3 person and a bike
Cos we got 3 person
den they need to go and send us for 2 trip
Sharon and Fion and driver one bike
Me and driver the next trip
damn dangerous
and driver drive very fast
the ppl dun see the traffic light de
juz chiong anyhow..

I miss everyone here..
Fion and Sharon cried
Sharon cried the most
especially in the night
Sharon asked me why din i cry
Is not that i dun miss my family and friends
is jus that i knew i had to be strong
3 of us juz cant simply be weak 2gther
Cos I'm the zai one leh..haha ;)

After this we need to go buy toilet paper..
Hiaz.. and wash clothes again..
Will update photos soon this week
cos We din expect ourself to go use internet outside 2day
and is raining hope we can get back..
take care guys..

QIAOTING AND YANMING
I WANNA EMAIL YOU ALL
BUT THE CONNECTION IS SOMEHOW LOST
I MISS LAOPOS..
TAKE CARE AND I'PROMISED TO EMAIL THE BOTH
QT PLS TAG AT MY BLOG IF THE THINGS HAD BEEN DONE

}} PARIS 3:49 AM

Sunday, April 27, 2008

In less than 3 hours time,
I'll be in the airport to cambodia
Goin to blog my last one b4 flying off
Juz had supper; mango ice
with Joanne, Wanyu, Jeyrlyn and Jiayi
@ xing wang cafe
cant believe that i'm flying off so soon
kinda miss everyone..

Everyone slping now..
why laopos you are not here 2night:(?

Haha.. Hope that my new chapter of life begin soon tmr
and two months will be gone in a blink of eye
Take care my dearest friends..
You all will be missed and loved..

There is someone that I had alot to say,
yet so little time
We may not had a good ending
but I'm really fortunate to had you for that past one year
if only time could bring us back
I will not had agreed to start and be friends..
However i did not regret to start
and I kinda of really give my heart all along
Take care and all the best in life..

And also to Mr Knows it all
I'm indeed sorry and sorry for the incident
Hope that you can qi xiao for these 2 months
and I'll wait for ur return from US too..
Take care of urself..

To Chuan liang lao pa,
Take good care in Vietnam
and Thks for listening to this unfilial ger..

To my Mr Smiley Super hero,
thks for standing by me these down days..
I'll be back with a full charged shell..
You're missed..

To JOANNE, DIANA, WANYU, JERLYN, ALVINA, HUI HUI ++++++ TONS of good ppl

Peers: Take good care and we shall see all the good changes regardless in you or us after 2 months.. We'll look forward 2 many care and concern sessions and We love you all deeply in heart.. pls tag, email and sms us.. and watched me blog for updates..

To 10 and ah di, Pls take good care of Dad and Mum.. You're missed too..

Good bye to my world of loved..

}} PARIS 11:47 AM

Friday, April 25, 2008

Went out to meet with laopos at clarke quay
wanna go mu chuan but it close down:(
Had Mahanttan fisher(fish)market for dinner
The mushroom soup was nice not the chowder:(
I bought flats at only 11.55 after discount
damn cheap.. @ mitju central
Qt bought a pair of heels from charles and keith
46 bucks.. damn ex but damn nice..
(And I paid for it FIRST).. haha
Had hokkaido ice cream by the river
I had the sea salt ice cream
qt had the milk tea
ym got the strawberry one
did alot of cam whoring..

so much fun gatheriin with everyone
I miss laopos so much
Though we're far apart and cant get to see each day
we still care and know each other so well
at our fingertips..
Miss the past old times we had at fireworks day
No matter what
LaoPOS FOR LIFE...

//Random

}} PARIS 11:35 AM

THE MINI MARKET-IANS

}} PARIS 1:59 AM

Thursday, April 24, 2008

WootWootWoot

Mini Market Gatherin today @ Minds Cafe
it's been a long time since we gather again
Minds Cafe had fabulous Fish and Chips..
Took alot of photos and I had edited some
Take alook at my editing skills.. not bad right..haha

M2 also received cookies from thtful Joanne and Diana
THks for the wonderful cookies..
BTW Sharon got hungry and
she ate Wanyu's cookie w/t noticing
She was happily munching and munching
till like 1/3 of the heart shaped cookie had been eaten
then she realised..Oops
We had fun sabotaging and forfeiting
I miss sch day where we meet and lunched
and most impt the CARE AND CONCERN SESSION
gonna miss everything till 3.2

Accidentally Bumped into qt at the interchange
WE gonna meet for mu chuan tmr.. haha
so happy, i so long nber see her since Bintan
Today less then 12 hours will be another happening night

Trying to get happening each day to forget the happened past
Forgoing is a major process that we learnt through real life experience..
If only I could cut down all this processes and get straight to happiness..
There will be no wastage of materials; tears, feelings and love

}} PARIS 11:18 AM

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

The happiest moment in my life.

and now it's gone..

I miss you..

}} PARIS 6:38 AM

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

I'm left with an empty heart
He came by and robbed all feelings away
He stolen my love, and now i'm left with an empty shell
Juz like you my dear, I need a shoulder too
Someone to lean and talk by heart
Someone to pamper and fill up that shell
In case you din realised,
I may be in a crowd, filled with millions of ppl
I tried my best to force myself to
laugh hard, play hard and enjoy hard and blend in
but loneliness is still living in there..

I always got this weird feelings towards wed
because is always a off day
it had been an hope day
a day that i'll hope for miracles
until one day when tears become dry
I dun dare to hope anymore
nt hoping for that miracles to happen on wed
I juz pray hard nt to get hurt on wed
and I'll be contented..

}} PARIS 7:03 AM

Monday, April 21, 2008

Doctor, I think I've got a broken heart.

Sharon, Fion and I went down to GB today

Collect fabric sample and took some pics for survey

Met Diana and Joanne @ vivo

Ate @ Bosses restaurant. Nice xiao long bao

Watched D.Maybe

It was a nice show, nthin much to comment

Chatted with Diana till 9 b4 we head home

We're common in some ways

We come up with smth:

Men are like different type of dishes

They come in diff. taste

When they're spicy, prepare water to cool urself down

When they're sweet, you shld start wryin abt gettin diabetics

When they're sour, it mean they're starting to turn bad

When they're bitter, just throw them away

Women shld just get a taste of everything

Gotta go busy this week

there's so much things to be done

catchin up, projects and all sorts of nonsense

yet so little time:(

Another 6 more days to go

When the date get closer

I'm getting nervous

Hopefully on Fri Z.B.S.ME could go out for a drink or twooo

I miss them

Okay, I just went thru my previous emails

I still din had the courage to delete them

Everlasting love? Whats the definition of everlasting?

I gave up for now, I really need some air

To the lesson of love, I'm new again..

}} PARIS 8:45 AM

Friday, April 18, 2008

"Once you feel for someone you have chosen, there's no getting back."
Quoted this from someone's blog

Sch is the best place to slack
There's internet, aircon and most of all companions
Counting down to cambodia
hoping that after i come back, luck will change for the better

So many things happen in between
I'm getting confused
Hell of lot, and is like merely one week plus
Think about this,
You hadnt got time to sort out the past r.
and here come someone wanting to barge into ur life
What are these ppl thinking
You think tt r. is just smth to play issit?
I wun wan to spend my time playing and
indulging in all this affairs and scandals thing
F lahz..

}} PARIS 12:44 AM

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

最后一封信
3.07am
16.4.2008

前奏

当初，
他紧紧的拥抱着她，心跳不停的加速
仿佛诉说着他害怕失去她。
如今，
她紧紧地拥抱着自己，眼泪流个不停
意味着她已永远失去他。
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给我最后一次最亲爱的你：
（我正在听着暖暖，心里很窝心）

在爱情的转角我遇见了你，你是我恋爱的起源，事实上尝到分手滋味也是同个你
我怀念你牵过的手，仿佛不想在人群中失去我。还有每当搭公车的时候，我靠过的肩膀。更是念记着我们一起看过的电影，一起听过歌，一起唱歌，一起挖苦对方，一起工作的情景，一起走过的街道，一起偷懒的午后，一起打电动，一起吃美食，一起做饭，一起傻笑，，一起胡闹，一起荡秋千，一起斗嘴，一起生气，一起唱歌，一起花钱，一起打架，一起油漆，一起撒娇，一起迟到。正因为是太多的一起一起，太多的点滴，才叫我无法忘记。每一次看见你傻笑，我都会忍不住偷笑。你像孩子般的天真叫我无法忘怀。我喜欢你亲我的额头，告诉我不要想太多，然后把我抱在怀里，疼爱着，守护着。遗憾的是还有太多地未完成。

当我们越是了解对方，我们就对彼此失去了好奇。感情更是因此变淡。然而我相信也许心再痛一遍就能听见你说一句我爱你，但你却始终不明白。你曾经是我生命里的全部，但现在已成为人生里的一个过客。感谢你为我留下一段美好的回忆。不管是好还是坏，你一路过就是个一年半载，在我日记里就记载了一大块，但很可惜陪我到最后的不是你。

她一定是比我好，一倍，十倍，百倍。要不然你不可能喜欢上她，因为你曾说过我会是你心里最好最爱的女人。所以她会带给你快乐和幸福把。她给你的爱应该不会少过我给你的全部。希望在天气变冷的时候为你盖上被子，紧紧地抱着你。在你饿的时候为你下厨。在你寂寞时斗你开心陪你胡闹，唱歌给你听，哄你入睡。
但只要我想到你会用牵过我的手去牵她，用吻过我的嘴去爱她，哄她，我的心会痛，我的泪会不自禁的流。每当闭上眼，我会想起你，怀念你的背影。

总之忘记一个人是不可能的事，放下择是唯一解脱
我要放下你，去寻找另一个可以爱我的（前）你

曾是你最爱的我笔
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她只留下了这一封信，就告别了空虚，从此回到了人群，从新开始一个人的生活。
至于他却没有了下文

}} PARIS 3:13 AM

Friday, April 11, 2008

Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
Yet all alone I cried
there was no place to go

}} PARIS 8:00 AM

Shouting out in silent
My life is in damn shit now
I'm leading my life like hell each day
Could someone jux take pity of me?
So many bad things happen on me
Yet nothing good has come by
not even one
I feel like crying out loud
But, I know it doesnt work
It jux feel like shit now

I knew i jux destroyed everything with my own hands
I'm really guilty, I'm really sorry
I knew that I've let the whole gang down
I betrayed the trust you all had for me
What shall I do to go back to the past?
Guys tell me what should I do?
I really feel so sad and pain inside
when I knew that everyone was invited there
except me, I'm really hurt by the actions
I juz feel like crying, I really hate myself for being so idiotic that day

I really gave up this relationship for my friends
I'm speaking the truth
I truely love being with everyone
He wanted me to choose either one
Honestly, Friends is what i choosen
But, deep down trying to forget him
is just so hard that my heart ache everynight
I really miss him
The more i'm trying to get him out of my head
the more i wan to see him
I din expect that the situation will turn out like this
I swear..

I din know what more i should say or either what shall I do
I wanted the best of both world
Friends and him
I lost him for my friends
I betrayed my friends trust because of me wanting to see him
I had nthing left in the end
I am left with an empty shell
I'm really trying to forget him each day
I really need you guys to be there for me
but today, had been the worst moment of my life
I was left alone, I felt empty, I lost everything
Yet I had to still put on a smile in front of everyone
Dont ask me how am i now
I'm not fine, I'm not okay
I breaking down..

HELP!!

}} PARIS 7:08 AM

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Firstly, I'm guilty of what i did these morning
To Mr Knows it all, i'm really very sorry
other than apologizing i din really knoe what to do
I feel so guilty towards you
If you could just tell me what to do
so that you could forgive me
it will makes me feel a million better

Slack around with the gang
Crappy sean broke into the HDB rest room
and found pornographic lolx..
We chatted alot and it was always fun hanging with them
There's laughter and scoldings and fightings
and all sorts of never ending craps
It was when everything ends in the morning
Hopefully we'll be able to gather at cl hse nxt thur

Went to Boss Pre-bdae chalet
Saw CG instructors, shock to see them there
so i actually did know Boss like millions years ago
just that we din get to know each other..
Had fun playing cards and MAHJONGS
[The "Elite" is a eweeeeeeeeeeee]
The food was nice and full
but we had to go home early
as peeps were staying far
so Boss sent us to tamp station
but i was put alight at hse bus stop
Thks BOSS alot for everything today

Happy Pre-birthday to Boss
All the best to you and Lao ban niang.. haha...
[though ur bdae is on de 10th but i scare i forget to post]:)

}} PARIS 9:26 AM

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

如果你愿意一层一层一层
的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层
的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意
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既然走到了尽头
就再也无法回头
只好继续往前走
我不再渴望你
你将是一段伤痕累累的过去

愚人节快乐

但我骗了自己

因为
我很快乐，很幸福

}} PARIS 10:26 PM