Paris

Friday, April 11, 2008

Shouting out in silent
My life is in damn shit now
I'm leading my life like hell each day
Could someone jux take pity of me?
So many bad things happen on me
Yet nothing good has come by
not even one
I feel like crying out loud
But, I know it doesnt work
It jux feel like shit now

I knew i jux destroyed everything with my own hands
I'm really guilty, I'm really sorry
I knew that I've let the whole gang down
I betrayed the trust you all had for me
What shall I do to go back to the past?
Guys tell me what should I do?
I really feel so sad and pain inside
when I knew that everyone was invited there
except me, I'm really hurt by the actions
I juz feel like crying, I really hate myself for being so idiotic that day

I really gave up this relationship for my friends
I'm speaking the truth
I truely love being with everyone
He wanted me to choose either one
Honestly, Friends is what i choosen
But, deep down trying to forget him
is just so hard that my heart ache everynight
I really miss him
The more i'm trying to get him out of my head
the more i wan to see him
I din expect that the situation will turn out like this
I swear..

I din know what more i should say or either what shall I do
I wanted the best of both world
Friends and him
I lost him for my friends
I betrayed my friends trust because of me wanting to see him
I had nthing left in the end
I am left with an empty shell
I'm really trying to forget him each day
I really need you guys to be there for me
but today, had been the worst moment of my life
I was left alone, I felt empty, I lost everything
Yet I had to still put on a smile in front of everyone
Dont ask me how am i now
I'm not fine, I'm not okay
I breaking down..

HELP!!

}} PARIS 7:08 AM