Saturday, August 02, 2008
Everyone's telling me I've been too emo recently..
But that's not really true..
Every moment had been too fast for me..
I hadnt got time to catch a breathe and stable down
and other matters just came popping by..
The night b4 Cl flown,
I dint sleep well..
I was thinking of my life for the past 18++ years..
I never felt so emptied in my whole life
I really blanked out after the days I returned
I dint know what I want
I struggled through all decisions
and I've become more and more indecisive
I was never like this, and I swear..
I always know what I want and
I will never let other influence me
But I'm being influenced again and again..
I feared about my future when I looked back at my "glorious" past
I was happy, easy-going and firm on my stand
WHAT HAPPEN TO ME???
Issit the older I grew the slower I'm moving towards maturity?
or the people and environment causes my state??
or should I say I'm tired of my workaholic past
I dont want to lose out in this stage,
I want a happening life
I hate failure and weaklink
I just want back myself..
P.S. CL take care in Vietnam
Mr Knows it all is coming back:)
Sorry to QT laopo for thurs..
I will try to pick up myself asap..
I vow...
}} PARIS 4:52 AM
